Why on earth would I want to pose nude for a group of photographers?
I'm not a psychologist or an authority on body image. I'm a 50-year-old woman who has suffered with anorexia and body dysmorphic disorder since I was 7 years old.
I've tried therapy and support groups over the past 15 years. Although they have helped tremendously and brought awareness about this disease, I seem to slip back into self-body-hatred periodically. Sometimes it lasts for a few days, sometimes a few months. The time period doesn't matter. What does matter is, even at my age I still struggle with my body. How many women do the same thing? Does it ever end?
For a lot of us, the disease begins in early childhood. For some, it happens in pre-pubescence when our young bodies are in a metamorphose stage from child to adult. The psychological damage done to girls is appalling, both as the result of media hype and the unrealistic expectations that society places on women, and through untreated childhood abuse - verbal, physical, emotional and sexual, to which I am no stranger on all counts.
Photo courtesy of Bonnie Miller (bonmiller.com)
A Later-In-Life Career Change
Changing a career path at the age of 50 - who does this? It can sound scary to some, especially once you've reached a later-in-life age. I'm not saying 50 is old. As a matter of fact, 50 is considered by many to be the new 30. But changing careers at any age can be a little intimidating.
I was invited by a photographer to participate in a nude/boudoir photo shoot a few months ago. Of the 5 models who were invited, I was the oldest (by 30 years). I'm not new to modeling - I've done some in the past few years, but never a nude shoot. This pushed my boundaries for sure. I looked forward to being photographed but not for the reasons you might think. This was therapy for me. Let me explain why:
I am living the dream, one day at a time, and sharing my experiences with you.
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